what is a person suppose to do when they hate their job, but there is no other place to go to? well the answer is suck it up and keep looking for a better place to be!!! let me tell you easier said than done. i have come to the realization that I hate banking in a casino. the hours suck and the pay isn't much better. and you have no family life. after being spoiled and only working when I wanted to these last 18 months have been horrible. I hate missing my childrens activities and having to depend on other people to get them home when it should be me... UGH!!!! I hate that my husband works 6 hours and in another state from where we live. I think generally today I hate just about everthing you can think of.

I have finally gotten a doctors appointment and I told my boss I am not cancelling this one so figure out what to do because I am going.. END OF DISCUSSION!!! he wasn't happy but oh well I need my pain pills. I am tires and cranky all the time and my fingers up to my elbows are blue, and I no longer can feel the front of my left thigh... so if my boss has issues with rearranging the schedule so I can see the doc,, it sucks to be him, because I will call off and leave him in the lurch.. I have cancelled 6 appointments and won't do it again. It wouldn't even be an issue if he would post the schedule at 3 week intervals like the union said he had to.

Also I have finally gotten Chris into the doctors and he is not happy with me. He hasn't seen a doc for 8 years and then only because he was having issues with stress and his blood pressure and before that he hadn't seen a doc since we got married. and let me tell you after this scare with his mom he doesn't have a choice about going. Even if I have to hog tie him he will be there.
so THERE.

well enought rambling... The kids are great. Courtney has calavacade tonight and I will be able to get there in time to see it. yeah. She is actually taking clarinet lessons, which she has not done since 5th grade, so that she can try out for regional band.. she has started looking into colleges and what is needed to enroll. that scares me, it shows that i am getting old. hahaha
she has almost completed her senior project the only thing really left it to get the band together to learn it and play it... that is not going to be fun..

Christopher is doing well in school and having a blast coaching this year, but he is definately ready to play next year. Another good sign with him is he has made up with a couple of his buddies and is starting to hang out with the kids that Chris and I like. thank goodness.
He also signed up for the random drug testing again this year. that makes me proud of him that he understands that drugs are really bad for you and not to do them.. so apparently he was listening to some of what his dad and i were saying... I know hard to believe but it does occasionally happen.

well for now that is all. i will sign in at another time and ramble so more

love to all

racing

thank the heavens that racing is over.. it has been a long summer and i am burned out. i have to look for time to take a small vacation. i am starting to snap at everyone..
on a good note i started back to school and i have passed my first two classes. and i am currently working on my third one.
the kids are doing great. Courtney is gearing up to save money for her trip to canada.. i have to get some money together for her passport. she is doing well in school. had a little bit of rough start in college chem but is pulling out of the rut and on her way with flying colors.

christopher is doing well in school so far and his coaching is keeping him busy.. and keeps him out of trouble. lol.

big chris's schedule is about to change again but hopefully not to bad. i so want to live with my husband full time. only 5 years left for bubba tograduate andthen yeah i get a full time husband.

well off to pay bills and to study... oh ahppy joy