Friday, January 22, 2010
Monday, November 30, 2009
rambling
well friends and family I am just in the mood to ramble.. all has been pretty good here. the kids are healthy and sassy.. Courtney is doing well with her driving and only 19 days until she takes her test.. oh my gosh I can't believe my baby girl is going to allowed to leagally be on the road.. what the heck is Pa thinking..lol Christopher is being your typical boy and hanging with his buddies most of the time. thank goodness he does not have a girlfriend yet...I'm not ready for that.
thanksgiving was really nice. My brother Jim and sister-in-law Tammy and my 2 nieces Katie and Sarah came up and they broght my dad.. It's so nice to be able to visit with family that you like to be around.. the Bear didn't stay long because he was making the trip to Conn. I still get a little upset with that, but it's not my life. It's a real shame that a death in the family is what brings it back together, unfortunately it was my mom who had to suffer and not reap the rewards of the family talking again.
I really must make an effort to compliment my sister-in-law on how well she handles her daughters temper tantrums. She has more patients than I did, I was always the sarcastic one and raising my voice, were she stays calm and gets them to tell her what the problem is.
I have been really bumbed this last couple of weeks, there is so much that I want to tell my mom and to ask her what to do about a couple of issues and she is just not there to answer. I know that she hears me, but I just can't hear her and I feel sad that I don't dream about her anymore. I know that I am not forgetting her because she is always on mind and I am always talking to her. So times I wonder if it will ever get easier thinking about her. they say time helps but it's been over 2 years and I still just cry at night for wanting her to hug me and talk to me.. I love my dad very much but it's just not the same. I know that parents are suppose to die before thier kids but not at such a young age or from such a crappy disease. I hate that life is not fair and that I have had to teach my kids that also. I only hope that as mom looks down on me that she pround that of how Courtney and Christopher are turning into amazing young adults.
well enough weepy rambles
god bless you all for putting up with me.
love to family and friends
thanksgiving was really nice. My brother Jim and sister-in-law Tammy and my 2 nieces Katie and Sarah came up and they broght my dad.. It's so nice to be able to visit with family that you like to be around.. the Bear didn't stay long because he was making the trip to Conn. I still get a little upset with that, but it's not my life. It's a real shame that a death in the family is what brings it back together, unfortunately it was my mom who had to suffer and not reap the rewards of the family talking again.
I really must make an effort to compliment my sister-in-law on how well she handles her daughters temper tantrums. She has more patients than I did, I was always the sarcastic one and raising my voice, were she stays calm and gets them to tell her what the problem is.
I have been really bumbed this last couple of weeks, there is so much that I want to tell my mom and to ask her what to do about a couple of issues and she is just not there to answer. I know that she hears me, but I just can't hear her and I feel sad that I don't dream about her anymore. I know that I am not forgetting her because she is always on mind and I am always talking to her. So times I wonder if it will ever get easier thinking about her. they say time helps but it's been over 2 years and I still just cry at night for wanting her to hug me and talk to me.. I love my dad very much but it's just not the same. I know that parents are suppose to die before thier kids but not at such a young age or from such a crappy disease. I hate that life is not fair and that I have had to teach my kids that also. I only hope that as mom looks down on me that she pround that of how Courtney and Christopher are turning into amazing young adults.
well enough weepy rambles
god bless you all for putting up with me.
love to family and friends
Saturday, October 17, 2009
kill the child
Well let me tell you that my lovely daughter pulled her first big fall to peer pressure. Let me tell you it was not drugs or alcohol, thank GOD... She allowed a friend, who has only been going to vo-tech for 2 month, to cut her hair. Well lets just say that it did not turn out well, and now courtney has a bob haircut that the beautician was just barely able to save it to. it is the shortest her hair has ever been. also this girl attempted to this out courtney's hair and butchered badley, so not only does court have short hair but it's very thin, the girl cut her hair at the scalp to thin it and court will have little spikes as her hair grows. thank the lord that it grows quickly.. Thurday was not a good day in the Harmon household that's for sure..
well that's all for now
well that's all for now
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
what is a person suppose to do when they hate their job, but there is no other place to go to? well the answer is suck it up and keep looking for a better place to be!!! let me tell you easier said than done. i have come to the realization that I hate banking in a casino. the hours suck and the pay isn't much better. and you have no family life. after being spoiled and only working when I wanted to these last 18 months have been horrible. I hate missing my childrens activities and having to depend on other people to get them home when it should be me... UGH!!!! I hate that my husband works 6 hours and in another state from where we live. I think generally today I hate just about everthing you can think of.
I have finally gotten a doctors appointment and I told my boss I am not cancelling this one so figure out what to do because I am going.. END OF DISCUSSION!!! he wasn't happy but oh well I need my pain pills. I am tires and cranky all the time and my fingers up to my elbows are blue, and I no longer can feel the front of my left thigh... so if my boss has issues with rearranging the schedule so I can see the doc,, it sucks to be him, because I will call off and leave him in the lurch.. I have cancelled 6 appointments and won't do it again. It wouldn't even be an issue if he would post the schedule at 3 week intervals like the union said he had to.
Also I have finally gotten Chris into the doctors and he is not happy with me. He hasn't seen a doc for 8 years and then only because he was having issues with stress and his blood pressure and before that he hadn't seen a doc since we got married. and let me tell you after this scare with his mom he doesn't have a choice about going. Even if I have to hog tie him he will be there.
so THERE.
well enought rambling... The kids are great. Courtney has calavacade tonight and I will be able to get there in time to see it. yeah. She is actually taking clarinet lessons, which she has not done since 5th grade, so that she can try out for regional band.. she has started looking into colleges and what is needed to enroll. that scares me, it shows that i am getting old. hahaha
she has almost completed her senior project the only thing really left it to get the band together to learn it and play it... that is not going to be fun..
Christopher is doing well in school and having a blast coaching this year, but he is definately ready to play next year. Another good sign with him is he has made up with a couple of his buddies and is starting to hang out with the kids that Chris and I like. thank goodness.
He also signed up for the random drug testing again this year. that makes me proud of him that he understands that drugs are really bad for you and not to do them.. so apparently he was listening to some of what his dad and i were saying... I know hard to believe but it does occasionally happen.
well for now that is all. i will sign in at another time and ramble so more
love to all
I have finally gotten a doctors appointment and I told my boss I am not cancelling this one so figure out what to do because I am going.. END OF DISCUSSION!!! he wasn't happy but oh well I need my pain pills. I am tires and cranky all the time and my fingers up to my elbows are blue, and I no longer can feel the front of my left thigh... so if my boss has issues with rearranging the schedule so I can see the doc,, it sucks to be him, because I will call off and leave him in the lurch.. I have cancelled 6 appointments and won't do it again. It wouldn't even be an issue if he would post the schedule at 3 week intervals like the union said he had to.
Also I have finally gotten Chris into the doctors and he is not happy with me. He hasn't seen a doc for 8 years and then only because he was having issues with stress and his blood pressure and before that he hadn't seen a doc since we got married. and let me tell you after this scare with his mom he doesn't have a choice about going. Even if I have to hog tie him he will be there.
so THERE.
well enought rambling... The kids are great. Courtney has calavacade tonight and I will be able to get there in time to see it. yeah. She is actually taking clarinet lessons, which she has not done since 5th grade, so that she can try out for regional band.. she has started looking into colleges and what is needed to enroll. that scares me, it shows that i am getting old. hahaha
she has almost completed her senior project the only thing really left it to get the band together to learn it and play it... that is not going to be fun..
Christopher is doing well in school and having a blast coaching this year, but he is definately ready to play next year. Another good sign with him is he has made up with a couple of his buddies and is starting to hang out with the kids that Chris and I like. thank goodness.
He also signed up for the random drug testing again this year. that makes me proud of him that he understands that drugs are really bad for you and not to do them.. so apparently he was listening to some of what his dad and i were saying... I know hard to believe but it does occasionally happen.
well for now that is all. i will sign in at another time and ramble so more
love to all
Monday, September 14, 2009
racing
thank the heavens that racing is over.. it has been a long summer and i am burned out. i have to look for time to take a small vacation. i am starting to snap at everyone..
on a good note i started back to school and i have passed my first two classes. and i am currently working on my third one.
the kids are doing great. Courtney is gearing up to save money for her trip to canada.. i have to get some money together for her passport. she is doing well in school. had a little bit of rough start in college chem but is pulling out of the rut and on her way with flying colors.
christopher is doing well in school so far and his coaching is keeping him busy.. and keeps him out of trouble. lol.
big chris's schedule is about to change again but hopefully not to bad. i so want to live with my husband full time. only 5 years left for bubba tograduate andthen yeah i get a full time husband.
well off to pay bills and to study... oh ahppy joy
on a good note i started back to school and i have passed my first two classes. and i am currently working on my third one.
the kids are doing great. Courtney is gearing up to save money for her trip to canada.. i have to get some money together for her passport. she is doing well in school. had a little bit of rough start in college chem but is pulling out of the rut and on her way with flying colors.
christopher is doing well in school so far and his coaching is keeping him busy.. and keeps him out of trouble. lol.
big chris's schedule is about to change again but hopefully not to bad. i so want to live with my husband full time. only 5 years left for bubba tograduate andthen yeah i get a full time husband.
well off to pay bills and to study... oh ahppy joy
Friday, August 28, 2009
life sucks
Well i think the saying "If lifes' a bowl of cherries why am I living in the pits" is an apt discription on how I feel right now. I so want a job were I can be home in the evenings and on the weekends with my kids. they are so busy and I am missing watching them do thier activities and I miss watching them grow. As you can probally tell I am feeling sorry for myself. I at least get to see them, I know that some parents don't get to see thier kids.
But this is my self pity day.. On day's like this I wish I had never bought my car or gotten a credit card. Then I would be free to get a part time job for the kids extra's and be available for them.
well enough of the pity party I have to get ready for work.. OH HAPPY JOY!!! sarcasm at it's best.
god bless all
But this is my self pity day.. On day's like this I wish I had never bought my car or gotten a credit card. Then I would be free to get a part time job for the kids extra's and be available for them.
well enough of the pity party I have to get ready for work.. OH HAPPY JOY!!! sarcasm at it's best.
god bless all
Thursday, August 27, 2009
school
well i did it. I am an offical college student. I enrolled in Penn Foster College out of Scranton Pa. I am doing their on line course in medical billing and coding. it will take me 15 months and then I will be eligble to take a national test to get certified. It feels like when I did my Surg Tech degree. I am just waiting for my books to come in the mail. I have already read the first chapter via on line but I want the books so that I can make notes and do some highlighting.
The kids had a good first day at school and I think Christopher will be ok this year. He seems to like his teachers which is good for him. Courtney started her college chem class and already has a test this friday. welcome to college life little girl..lol.
My girlfriend's daughter is pre diabetic and they are going to try changing her diet for 6months to see if that will make a difference. I personally feel that 1500 cal for a 17 year old is a little low and diabetes runs in her family. so I have a feeling that she will eventually be insulin dependent.
well love to all and god bless
The kids had a good first day at school and I think Christopher will be ok this year. He seems to like his teachers which is good for him. Courtney started her college chem class and already has a test this friday. welcome to college life little girl..lol.
My girlfriend's daughter is pre diabetic and they are going to try changing her diet for 6months to see if that will make a difference. I personally feel that 1500 cal for a 17 year old is a little low and diabetes runs in her family. so I have a feeling that she will eventually be insulin dependent.
well love to all and god bless
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