january

I can't believe the new year is flying by like it has. So much has happened since I last had the chance to sit and write ob the blog. Christmas was nice and quite. the kids got a wii and they are actually enjoying it and then their Bear got them the wii fit and low and behold my bubba likes yoga. who would have thunk it. sis is away at district band until Sunday and she seems to be having a great time. her music playing is amazing. she had to audition for a solo with her e-flat clarinet and she got it, plus the part that she has to play with her soprano clarinet. she gets home just to turn around and leave again for county band practice. plus she needs to keep her grades up. she actually had a little trouble with algebra 3 but we hope to see that grade come back up.
bubba is thinking about trying out for Jr high basketball. it would be nice if he could make the team. he has such low self esteem and i just don't know how to get him to realize that he can be good at anything he wants if he just puts the effort into it. boys who become teenagers and hit puberty at the same time can really drive a mom to drink.

Chris is doing well and thankfully still has his job. he had now made it through 7 layoffs and is still working. one of the high ups in the company said when Chris goes then the Ohio depot shuts down. that made me feel good that the company thinks that highly of my husband.

I'm doing OK. I am still looking for a different job, which is really hard into today's economic strife. but hopefully there is something out there for me. it's not that this job is bad but it does not mesh with a family. when i need to be some were with the kids i have to work, or if i want to visit my family i have to work. my goal is to pay off my car as quickly as possible while putting money into savings and then quit if possible. and then try to find something part time. just to keep me busy and out of trouble.
this weather is paying havoc on my old bones and not helping the rsd or fibromyalsia. sucks let me tell you. there are some days i just wish i could cut my arms off just to get rid of the pain. sometimes it gets so bad i just want to curl in a ball and cry and pray for death, but i don't. i can't because the kids won't let me. thank god. then they wouldn't have anyone to torture. LOL.
there are days like today that i miss my mom so much. she would love to see courtney play in the band tonight and tomorrow. she never missed one concert. she was very proud of courtney and her music. also she would love to have seen christopher play soccer last year and to know that he lettered and proudly displays that letter on the coat that she bought him. and of course she would tease him about his bowling, but being equally proud that he is doing so well. and then she would be there for me to rant and rave about life and everything and believe it or not tell me to suck it up and get on with living life. lol.
well enough ramblings of a middle age women. god bless you all